life latly.

life latly.

   So latly life for me has been really hard.Everything has been so confusing and i dont know what to do about any of it.My best friend tried to kill himself a week ago which has made this week been incredibly hard and confusing.Then my parents have been pretty rude to me and they dont understand what im going through or anything.Then my best friend(the one that tried to kill himself) got really really mad at me and i have no idea why.Its all been incredibly confusing and all i can/have been doing is praying about it.

   Thats what ive been realizing alot latly.Is that you can run your life cause if you did everything would be a mess.Ive realized that you have to let god take control of your life or everything will be a mess and you wont be happy the way things would be.Ive realized that you cant handle everything that happens in your life.Only god can.Because in the end gods plan for you will make you happier then you couldve ever imagined.Thats whats been pretty hard for me latly.I have so many things i want to do and i tried to make them work but it wont work and i honestly think its cause its not gods plan for me.Its pretty hard because i want things to happen a certain way but its almost like i dont want to do what god says because im afraid that i will lost friends and this one special guy that i like.It scares me that i could lose him but i have to trust god.Thats what i need to do the most right now.Is trust in god.He will take care of everything that needs to be taken care of and i need to have faith in him.

    But through all of this I have been praying ALOT about everything thats been hard for me.And for some weird reason...everything starts to get better and then it gets worse .Then it gets better and then it gets worse.Its weird I just want everything to be better.I know it will eventually get better for good and everything will be good but im still so confused.I was really confused about who i really am but i think thats better now.I was and still am confused about what to do with the guy i like.I like him ALOT ALOT ALOT but he still likes his ex and he flirts with a million other girls.What do you do in that situation? He is a really great guy and hes a christian but hes to caught up in wordly things and girls.Me and one of my other friends are trying to help him and help him get back to only caring about what god thinks and stuff like that.But its gonna take awhile to get him to realize stuff especially since i never see him AT ALL in school anymore.So im not exactly sure how to do it but me and my friend are worken on it.But I honestly think that in the end  he will wont be so obsessed with other things and everything will be alot better but please pray for me and that everything will work out to be gods plan and work out for the best.thnx! =]