06.08.07 (10:17 pm) [edit]
summer.time for relaxing and having fun with friends right? well not exactly for me.this summer has been great yet not so great.so far this summer has turned out to be completly different then what i thought it would be. I thought this summer would be just having fun with my friends and going to a mission trip with my church and camp and stuff.I pictured me having lots of fun swimming,going to the mall,hanging out with all my friends,and just having a great time.but so far its been kinda like that but for the most part its been completly different.its almost as if everything in my life has turned upside down. In the school year, I had lots of friends.The greatest people that i knew where my friends.But as soon as summer gets here...that changes.Just 2 weeks into summer i start getting in fights with alot of my friends.At the time I didnt think it would be that big of a deal that i was getting in all these fights with my friends but now because of some things ive lost what seems like alot of my friends.And now because of losing some of my friends I feel like i have nobody to turn to for help, for advice, or just for someone to talk to.I feel like everybody just got tired of me and just left me standing in the dust to feel all alone acting like they dont care at all.Because of all this, I have realized what I want in a friend.And I hoped that someday I would find friends like what I wanted.And now I just want to be away from the rest of the world cause it seems like most people hate me. Another thing thats goin on is ive been really stressed latly.With all my problems with friends,some other problems with my parents,Im goin to canada in 2 weeks with my church.ya it sounds like alot of fun and everything but its sooo stressful!!! Ive missed so many meetings and things that im not near ready to go.Its so stressful cause I have to have all this stuff done..by tomorrow actually and i have to do all this stuff and its to soon.Plus im not even sure if God wants me to go.Its just all so confusing and idk what to do. But along with all the bad things thats happened so far it has gotten a lil bit better.Because along with being stressed and everything I prayed alot and just really asked god to take care of this whole situation and he has calmed me and told me he will take care of it.=]]] It really amazes me to see how God can do anything and how he goes in a fixes anything.=]]]] I have really learned alot these past 2 weeks and im sure i will learn more.=D
summer.time for relaxing and having fun with friends right? well not exactly for me.this summer has been great yet not so great.so far this summer has turned out to be completly different then what i thought it would be. I thought this summer would be just having fun with my friends and going to a mission trip with my church and camp and stuff.I pictured me having lots of fun swimming,going to the mall,hanging out with all my friends,and just having a great time.but so far its been kinda like that but for the most part its been completly different.its almost as if everything in my life has turned upside down. In the school year, I had lots of friends.The greatest people that i knew where my friends.But as soon as summer gets here...that changes.Just 2 weeks into summer i start getting in fights with alot of my friends.At the time I didnt think it would be that big of a deal that i was getting in all these fights with my friends but now because of some things ive lost what seems like alot of my friends.And now because of losing some of my friends I feel like i have nobody to turn to for help, for advice, or just for someone to talk to.I feel like everybody just got tired of me and just left me standing in the dust to feel all alone acting like they dont care at all.Because of all this, I have realized what I want in a friend.And I hoped that someday I would find friends like what I wanted.And now I just want to be away from the rest of the world cause it seems like most people hate me. Another thing thats goin on is ive been really stressed latly.With all my problems with friends,some other problems with my parents,Im goin to canada in 2 weeks with my church.ya it sounds like alot of fun and everything but its sooo stressful!!! Ive missed so many meetings and things that im not near ready to go.Its so stressful cause I have to have all this stuff done..by tomorrow actually and i have to do all this stuff and its to soon.Plus im not even sure if God wants me to go.Its just all so confusing and idk what to do. But along with all the bad things thats happened so far it has gotten a lil bit better.Because along with being stressed and everything I prayed alot and just really asked god to take care of this whole situation and he has calmed me and told me he will take care of it.=]]] It really amazes me to see how God can do anything and how he goes in a fixes anything.=]]]] I have really learned alot these past 2 weeks and im sure i will learn more.=D
beach week 2007[[church camp]]
06.08.07 (7:12 pm) [edit]This past week I went to south padre island for church camp.It was the best thing ive ever expierenced in my life.It was so fullfilling and lively. Everything there was so amazing. The beach was amazing, zeke dorr band was amazing, afshin ziafat was amazing, camp alltogether was amazing.This year was honestly the greatest year so far. Before camp, I was so far from God.So far that I wasnt sure if I could even have that firery feeling that I use to feel all the time for God. The weeks before camp I was praying and praying that I could find my God again and learn some new things and hear God telling me what to do with and in my life. All I did on the 10 hr bus trip down there was hope I would once again have that feeling. When we FINALLY got to the hotel after a wrong turn that took what seemed like 30 minutes to turn around, we had to lug all of our suitcases including our backpack, suitcase, and pillow across what I honestly think is the longest parking lot in America and up to our rooms. Well of course my room had to be on the 3rd floor and with around 300 mabey 350 people comming from the busses to go to their room, there was going to be no room on the elevators and if there was we wouldve had to wait for like an hour.So me sarah and ashley lugged all of our heavy luggage up 3 flights of stairs stopping every once in awhile because we were so tired. Well pretty soon this man from our camp came along and made me realize that it was going to be an amazing camp. Like I was saying, there was a man going up the flights of stairs me sarah and ashley were going up. He saw that we had hard time getting all of our stuff up the stairs and so he asked me "do you need help with that?" and before I could answer he took my suitcase and took up half a flight of stairs.I was so grateful cause I was all sweaty from trying really hard to get up.It wasnt until later that I realized that he wanted to help me.And so along with that thought, I started thinking about how when you have God in your life you start to want to do things for other people whether they ask you to or not. So after all that happened and everything we had to go get ready to go to the worship service.As the service started I was hopeful that I would have that feeling of being close to God, but for some reason I didnt feel it. The next day we went to schlitterbahn and I was scared to get on some rides because sarah and ashley had flipped over on one of them the year before and I didnt want to get hurt on them.Well we ended up getting in line and the whole time we were waiting I was so nervous.I was praying that we wouldnt flip over.I prayed about 2 or 3 times before we got up there to go on it and I couldnt sit in our tube to go i had to move my arms or somthen cause i was to nervous.We went on the ride and as it ended I was sooo glad that we didnt flip over or anything and I saw that God kept us safe.=] After schlitterbahn we went to another service and I started to feel God in that service and in the services after that. It wasnt until the last night that we were there[[thursday night]] that I fully felt God.At the service the songs and the speaker[[afshin ziafat]] just really spoke to me.We got together with just about 3 other people and prayed.Everybody started crying and just really praying hard and seeking God.After everybody finished praying we went outside to the patio[[right by the beach]] and we sang songs, had communion,and just talked to our friends, worshiped and everything.It was then that I felt completly and fully happy, amazing, and just plain great.During communion I really saw and rememberd what God has done for me.As I watched everybody else cry because they finally felt close to God I started to cry too.I felt so amazing and I was so happy that I could finally call God MY God and not just call him the God I believe in but not close to.I FINALLY after so long got to tell my friends that I am in love with MY God.We stayed outside for awhile me and ashley just cryed with eachother and I found another one of my friends and he told me the exact same story of how I had finally felt...that he was finally on the right path and he could hear gods voice talking to him.It was the most AMAZING thing to see how God was working through everybodys life and really moving them to want to live their life for him.I felt better then I ever had in my life. After thinking alot about my life before camp and everything it became clear to me what God wants in my life.I was sooooooo INCREDIBLY happy to hear Gods voice and to finally feel him with me.I learned so much that night and I felt so many happy feelings.It was an emotional yet amazingly wonderful night. Everything about that night spoke to me.I was so moved just by looking at the beautiful beach in the moonlight and see how truly amazing God is. I learned alot at camp.One of them was how prayer is really powerful and important.I mean before camp I knew that it is important and that u r talking to God about whats on your mind but I never realized until camp that when u r praying u r actually talking to god.Its like hes my best friend right next to me and we are just tlaking.I felt so great to just pray to God.Another thing I didnt learn but that God really made clear to me is that being in his word every single day was VERY important.I never really read my bible that much.Why? because a)i didnt understand it b) i got bored by it sadly c)i didnt have time to or d) i just didnt ever feel like reading.well now I am in the word every single day and i understand it, I NEVER get bored by it[[i cant believe I ever did get bored by it]],and I grow closer to god and really understand whats going on.Camp made me realize alot of things that have completly changed my life and I can honestly say that im giving up everything for him and I am living to be an ambassador of christ and really live my life for him and I can honestly now say that you have NO IDEA how AMAZINGLY GREAT it feels to say I AM IN LOVE WITH MY GOD! =]]] * that was my wonderful camp expierence and i didnt go into complete details about everything like the band and the speaker and if anybody would like me to then i would love to.=] this blog took me an hour and 10 min to write so i hope u like it.=]