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friends//music

    & nbsp;   Friends are amazing.They are alaways there for you,they alaways help you,and they are there when you need a shoulder to cry on.Thats how my friends are and thats how they are alaways gonna be.=]

    & nbsp;    I love my friends, dont get me wrong or anything cause i love them.But right now they are making things so confusing in my life.I REALLY RELALY REALLY like this guy that asked me out and half of them are saying no and the rest are saying yes so im pretty confused.Believe me it is the HARDEST thing having best friends that hate eachothers guts.all of my best friends have someone else that they hate thats also my best friend.Its inredibly hard and i hate it.why cant we all just get along.that would be the GREATEST thing.

    & nbsp; Theres been a couple of situations where my friends have been a big help but alos a couple of situations where theve been not help at all.There was this one were i really liked this guy but one of my best friends said i was stupid for liking him.And now i like the guy that said not to go out with the other guy and now the guy that i use to like says not to go out with the guy that i like now.ughh ya its really confusing.=[ I really want all my friends to get along but they wont.its very time consuming and very hard.

    & nbsp;  Somthen that ive been thinking about alot latly is music.Music is amazing,it says words i cant say,its my love.But is it really that bad to like/listen to punk rock,screamo and mabey some metal every once in awhile??? My parents are now telling me that they need to approve of the music i listen to.The music i listen to is not bad at all.The bands just happen to dress gothic and punk.My favorite bands are avenged sevenfold,AFI,kill hannah,underoath,the red jumpsuit apparatus,scary kids scaring kids and some other ones.those are all bands that dress gothic/punk but they dont have bad music AT ALL.so since they dont have bad music then why is it so wrong to listen to them???? i love my music and i love those bands.Thats the reason why im kinda doing....a study on  music and im just kinda experimenting with different kinds of music.i dont like metal at all except for a couple of songs by lamb of god.but im listening to it to experiment with it and see why people like it so much.but my parents just HAVE to get in the way.but i think everything with me and my parents is getting better.theres also some bands that i refuse to listen to unless it just happens to come on in a store or somthen.some of those bands would be godsmack because of the name,marilyn mansion,lamb of god except one of their songs,and basically just alot of really bad hard metal or metal.i like screamo but metal is just like overboard on music.but ya i am experimenting with music and just listening to all the different kinds.i am actually thinking about mabey a career in music or somthen.that would be pretty fun! =]] well i just thought id tell u whats been goin on for me latly.=]] byee! =]
 

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this week.

   This week has been really fun but really hard.As usual i have been argueing and fighting with my parents and stuff.i just wish that my parents would leave me alone and just let me deal with my personal stuff the way i want to.they are constantly stepping in and trying to fix it themselves and they cant fix it.they are to strict on me and i have no idea what to do about it.they wont let me go to the mall which is when i ALAWAYS get to talk to the friends i never see at school(cant go cause alot of gang fights have happened)but the fights are over and they still wont let me go back.my best friend needs me to be there for him because hes upset about alot of stuff alot of the time but i cant cause my parents wont let me go anywhere that he can go.it makes me inredibly mad and upset.i have no idea what to do about it.sometimes i get so mad at my parents that i just need to be away from them and when my friend says i can go over to his house to talk to him about whats upsetting me and to watch tv my parents wont let me go.i mean i realize that it is a guys house but his parents are there and nothing would happen.ive known him for 5 yrs now and i know that nothing would happen.its getting pretty scary for me cause hes alaways talking about how he wants to die and how he hates his life.then sometimes ill call him and ask what hes doing and he will be like"im in the middle of killing myself." it scares the freaken crap out of me.hes my best friend in the whole world i can lose him and i dont know what i would do without him.he alaways needs me to talk to him but my parents wont let me talk on the phone or on the computer and they wont let me go to his house so that we can talk.i know my parents are being strict because they are protecting me but im so scared that one of these days i wont be able to talk to him and then his parents will call me and be like"he killed himself last night." that would be sooo hard for me.i cant lose him and i dont know what i would do without him so that would be my worst nightmare.so its pretty hard for me.

    Another thing is that i keep growing farther and farther away from god.im trying to become closer to him and read my bible and pray alot about it but it doesnt seem to be getting any better at all.i desperatly need him but i have no idea how to be close to him again.its all so confusing and i need him just to work through my life and my best friends life.all that i know to do is pray alot about it constantly.i hope that everything gets better and i have faith in god that it will.if u have any advice or anything at all please send me a message or somthen or comment on this blog i could really use some advice about this stuff.please and thnx.=]] oh and please pray for my friend.he really needs his life to change around.thank you!

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