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tried.

    Life has been so hard latly.Im not exactly sure what to do about alot of things.So in order to explain some things i have to tell some things.

    One of my best friends is in alot of trouble.Hes smoking...again and hes just into alot of bad things.Im not sure what to do about it.Hes a christian and everything but he just has alot of bad things in his life and he wants to be closer to god but hes to caught up on worldy things.Ive tried helping him and talking to him about everything but it doesnt seem to help.Im starting to get the feeling that not matter what im say to him and no matter what i do i cant do anything about it and hes just gonna have to change on his own.can i change it???? what should i tell him????

   That is the main reason why I am so confused about life and everything.I dont understand how someone can have so much bad stuff in their life and not even care.I tried soo hard to help him to change his life around in a good way but its not changing at all.Im tired of worrying about him and im tired of everybody being rude to me about it.He is my bestfriend and i dont want to lose him because of cancer from smoking or some other stupid reason.So basically I have no idea what to say,what to do,what to think,or what to feel.And you know what makes everything even worse is that I like him like that and i dont want to.So now im even more confused.All I do and can do is pray but that doesnt seem to help.Does anybody have any advice on what to say to my friend or anything like that???? cause if u do i could definantly use it.:)
 

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life latly.

   So latly life for me has been really hard.Everything has been so confusing and i dont know what to do about any of it.My best friend tried to kill himself a week ago which has made this week been incredibly hard and confusing.Then my parents have been pretty rude to me and they dont understand what im going through or anything.Then my best friend(the one that tried to kill himself) got really really mad at me and i have no idea why.Its all been incredibly confusing and all i can/have been doing is praying about it.

   Thats what ive been realizing alot latly.Is that you can run your life cause if you did everything would be a mess.Ive realized that you have to let god take control of your life or everything will be a mess and you wont be happy the way things would be.Ive realized that you cant handle everything that happens in your life.Only god can.Because in the end gods plan for you will make you happier then you couldve ever imagined.Thats whats been pretty hard for me latly.I have so many things i want to do and i tried to make them work but it wont work and i honestly think its cause its not gods plan for me.Its pretty hard because i want things to happen a certain way but its almost like i dont want to do what god says because im afraid that i will lost friends and this one special guy that i like.It scares me that i could lose him but i have to trust god.Thats what i need to do the most right now.Is trust in god.He will take care of everything that needs to be taken care of and i need to have faith in him.

    But through all of this I have been praying ALOT about everything thats been hard for me.And for some weird reason...everything starts to get better and then it gets worse .Then it gets better and then it gets worse.Its weird I just want everything to be better.I know it will eventually get better for good and everything will be good but im still so confused.I was really confused about who i really am but i think thats better now.I was and still am confused about what to do with the guy i like.I like him ALOT ALOT ALOT but he still likes his ex and he flirts with a million other girls.What do you do in that situation? He is a really great guy and hes a christian but hes to caught up in wordly things and girls.Me and one of my other friends are trying to help him and help him get back to only caring about what god thinks and stuff like that.But its gonna take awhile to get him to realize stuff especially since i never see him AT ALL in school anymore.So im not exactly sure how to do it but me and my friend are worken on it.But I honestly think that in the end  he will wont be so obsessed with other things and everything will be alot better but please pray for me and that everything will work out to be gods plan and work out for the best.thnx! =]
 

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Im prayen for the strength to carry on.

    I am listening to this song right now and it really relates to me. Heres some of the lyrics.

How am I supose to be happy, 

When all I ever wanted,

Comes with a price.

   These lyrics explain exactly how i feel about some things.I really like this guy but as many other things, it comes with a price.My friends dont approve of him for me and I dont know what to do.I like him alot but i dont want to lose my friends cause some of them would be mad at me if i went out with him.So im not exactly sure what to do about it.

    Im also listening to this other song.It also explains how i feel about everything thats hard for me in my life right now.Heres some of the lyrics

 That song explains EXACTLY how i feel about everything going on in my life.Theres so many hard things but I pray about all of it all the time.For the longest time i was confused about stuff and everything was hard for me.There is still alot of stuff thats hard for me but its gradually getting better.Not everythings getting better but I know it will.Because god is gonna use all these bad and confusing things to make my life better.

    I really like that song because it says "I feel broken and alone". Thats how i feel about some things.I feel so broken and like nobody else understands what im going through.I feel like i cant hear god telling me what to do in these situations.But its getting better though.Ive gotten closer to god and i now know what he wants me to do with some of the things in my life but just not all of them.=]]  But everything is starting to change around.And through this whole thing, God wanted me to learn to have more faith in him.Thats the reason for everything.=]

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Everything.

  Everything in my life has been so hard latly.I never know what to do about anything, I never know whats right, and I never know what god wants me to do. Its all so confusing and I never have near enough time to just think about things and figure them out.

  I struggle with so many things.I struggle with thinking im fat, with school,with friends,with staying focused on god.I struggle with so many things I honestly am to now where I dont know what to do or who to talk to about it.I pray about everything constantly but nothing seems to be happening.Nothing is going easier and my mountain of hard things in my life is getting higher and higher.I am so confused and it never seems to be getting any better, its pretty much getting worse.

   But its not all getting worse.Some things have gotten better.Ive gotten closer to god.Not as close as i want to be but closer.I just hope everything will continue to get better.Please pray for me.I really need things to get better.

comments are welcome =]

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2007

   Well its 2007 everyone!!! I was on the phone with my friends on the phone last night while i watched the ball drop.It was really fun.While it just turned 2007 my and my friends jason and levi started saying all this stuff like"first time on myspace in 2007" and "first person i talked to in 2007".haha.While i was talking to them i was thinking about 2006 and all that has happened in it.

    2006 went by really fast for me.So much happened and went on.There was lots of bad times but also lots of good times that im gonna remember forever.But overall it was a great year.I just hope i dont lose any friends or anything this year.I almost lost one of my best friends last year and i dont want to lose him.But if it happens then itll be for the best.well i hope  everyone has  a great 2007!!

happy new years everyone!!!!!!

my new years resolution is to be a better christian and a great friend.
 

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