christmas eve.
12.28.06 (8:19 pm) [edit]Well i was thinking about everything tonight and i was thinking about christmas and how it was good...and then i thought about christmas eve.
On christmas eve, i went with my grandparents to their church's christmas eve service.The preacher was talking and then after he was talking he said that we were gonna have communion.My grandma told my grandad to go and sit on the other side of her so that he wouldnt feel bad and akward when they brought the communion plates to our row.So my grandad went and sat by my grandma.The ushers came to our row and passed it down.My whole family thought that my grandad was just going to pass it to the next person but.... he didnt.He took it from the plates.We were all suprised especially my grandma.She started crying and i didnt know why.So i asked her and she said "your grandad has never taken comunion before and he wants to." When my grandma said that, it just completly changed me.It changed the way i was thinking about stuff, it changed the way i felt about stuff, it changed the way i was.
I was so happy.I had never seen my grandma be so happy that she was crying.It just completly changed me.All these emotions and thoughts just started running through my head.I felt so happy and excited.And that was the one moment when i first realized, my grandma is an amazing person and shes the best person to talk to about ANYTHING.She helps me,prays with me,gives me the best advice,and best of all... she doesnt judge me on things i do and the way i think.she understands me.I love my grandma...she has honestly become one of my best friends and i dont care at all what anyone thinks about that.
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tried to be everything that you ever wanted.
12.27.06 (4:42 pm) [edit]I was listening to this song on my myspace and some of the lyrics were"i tried to be perfect.I tried to be honest.I tried to be everything that you ever wanted" And i just randomly thought " that sounds like me".
About 4 months ago i went out with this guy, and we broke up 2 weeks later.I really liked him for like 1 and 2 months after we broke up. I tried everything to get him back.I tried acting like the type of girl that he would like, didnt work.I tried everything that i could think of.I just couldnt understand why he didnt like me.After awhile when i got really tired of not being myself so i gave up.
I didnt get tired of the guy not liking me but i got tired of acting like someone completly different then the real me.I hated it.So i finally thought"if he doesnt like me like that or even as a friend, then he doesnt like me."
That story is what made me start writing alot of blogs about how i feel and other stuff i think about.Im honestly glad that that happened because if it wouldnt have, then i wouldnt be the person that i am today.And i like the person i am today.=] So basically what im saying is dont ever change the way you are for someone else.Because if that person doesnt like you then they just dont know what they are missing out on.=]] Just move on and you will find someone that you like alot and the other person will like u alot and itll be way better relationship then the one you ever thought was possible.=DD
christmas!
12.25.06 (4:03 pm) [edit]My christmas was really good! I got a cell phone! which made me incredibly happy.And i got a piccolo because im in band and i might tryout to play piccolo at the end of this year.I got some other really great stuff to! It has been a really fun christmas....except im still kinda sick.=[ but other then that its been really fun!
& nbsp; The best part was just being with my family and seeing how they loved to just be together and stuff.it was great.I honestly think that i was the happiest seeing my parents and grandparents open their gifts.they were so happy and thankful for their gifts and the time my family put into buying them.it made me feel all good inside. =]]] haha.
So how was everyone elses christmas????? Im hoping it was pretty good! I know that this girl from my church's christmas wasnt very good because her uncle committed suicide on saturday morning.so im pretty sure she was really sad today.If you dont mind, can you please be praying for her.she is really upset right now.I know that she would appreciate it!
Somthing that i was going to do this year but didnt because i forgot about it with finals at school and everything else was doing the lil thingy where u buy a present for a kid in the hendrick home(kids who dont have parents but have houseparents) and give it to them.I really wanted to because i have some friends that live there and they alaways work so hard and dont get very much.But i completly forgot about it this year and i remembered like a week before today(christmas) but by then it wasnt going on anymore.so i felt kinda bad.But i am defenantly going to remember to do it next year because i know that those kids deserve it!
well that was my christmas! 
punk-prep
12.23.06 (6:46 pm) [edit]Ok well i was just thinking about alot of stuff and i was wandering somthing so i thought i would write it in a blog and see what other people think.
I was wandering....is it bad to be punk instead of preppy when your a christian and a good girl?? i really like punk clothes but i feel weird sometimes when i wear punk stuff.is it bad to look punk when u are a follow the rules kind of girl? im just a lil confused.i would really like to know what u think about it.=]
mirrors.
12.23.06 (10:08 am) [edit]my life latly.=]]]
12.21.06 (2:30 pm) [edit]So latly ive been thinking about alot of stuff. Mostly stuff like my life,this guy i like,things i want to do in my life,my friends,the way i am.
One of the things ive been thinking about alot is my life and the way im living it right now.Ive been pretty confused about alot of it.Because my life has been different the past month or two.As most of my friends know, ive been wearing more punk stuff then usual.i honestly have no idea why.i think i honestly got tired of looking preppy all the time.ya ik idk what i was thinking.but i just got tired of it so i started wearing more punk stuff.And as i wore more punk stuff i finally just one day was like"what am i doing, this isnt me." So i started thinking about it and i realized i wasnt the same person i use to be.
Once i finally realized that, i started to wander who i really am.I wanderd "is this me? is this the real me?."
After awhile i got tired of wearing punk stuff, i felt weird.And i all the sudden one day i just all the suddenly thought today"i miss the real me." i honestly hate the way i was when i wore punk stuff.it wasnt me and i didnt like it.but now im back to wearing mostly preppy stuff. So i decided to go back to the old me. Ive been alot happier since i went back to the old me.But not everything has gone back to the way it use to be.I miss how i use to write.i use to write really good and now i just dont have any ideas but its gradually going back to the way it use to be.I miss the way i use to never care what anyone thought about me.But thats going back the way it use to be too.=]]] I miss the bridget that use to love to sing,that loved photography,that loved writing, and only cared about what god thought about her. But its getting better but still needs to get a lil better =]]].haha.But since all this has happened its made me realized how i love the way i am.and now that ive gone like sorta halfway punk.... im not gonna change unless its for the better..i love the way i am and its gonna stay that way =]]]]]].
2006
12.16.06 (11:09 am) [edit]Well as everyone knows, the end of the year is comming and a new year is about to begin.I dont know about anyone else but for me this whole year has gone by SUPER fast!
Theres been so many things happen this year.Good and bad.But i dont regret any of it.Everything that has happened this year and its all made me a stronger person.I have found one of the greatest friends.He has helped me so much.Hes made me a stronger person and he is one of the greatest people and he is SUPER fun to be around.
I have also grown alot in my relationship with god this year.That has made me incredibly happy.I have changed alot this past year.Not for bad but for good.I am completly different then i was a year ago which is good. :) haha
Since the end of this wonderful year is comming to an end pretty soon it makes me think about what will happen next year.Theres going to be alot of hard things happen for me but also alot of good things.Im looking forward to next year as long as i still have all my same friends.I think i would die if i lost any of my friends.Like freddy,jason g.,jason r.jaime,sarah,ashley,philip ,evan,travis,austin.If i left u out im sorry i have to many friends! haha but anyways....i dont want to lose them.any of them.I love them all!
I am actually looking forward to the new year.New friends,new people to meet,closer relationship with god,getting better grades(hopefully),havin tons of fun,the trips im gonna go on! Its going to be so much fun! The new year is going to be filled with tons of things that may make or break me.But either way.....Im not going to regret things and im just gonna look at everything like its all making me stronger. 
enjoy life.
12.13.06 (8:35 pm) [edit]Latly i have been thinking about how some people just spend their time trying to look "cool" for other people or just trying to be stupid.
"LIfe's to short to care about what others think". That happens to be one of my favorite quotes.I like it because its soo true! People spend to much time worrying about what other think and trying to be kool for people.
Ive seen some people at school wanting to do somthing and end up not doing it because they might look stupid or weird.I dont see why people care so much about what other people think.If i want to do somthing then i do it unless itll end up hurting me or not good for me.I honestly dont care about what other people think about me.It wastes my time when i could be having fun instead of just sitting there and being like"oh well ig i wont cause thats kinda weird".
You never know when you are going to die.It could be in 10 yrs,in 1 yrs,tomorrow,or even tonight.Im not saying that ur gonna die soon but im saying that you never know when you are going to die so stop trying to look cool for other people and just do what u want to do.If you do what you want to do then you will end up happier.One example of people being scared of what other people would think about somthing is when a guy asks a girl out and the girl likes the guy but they are scared to go out with him cause they are scared that all the other girls wont think hes hott or cute.well guess what???....... IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT OTHERS THINK IF YOU LIKE THE PERSON! If you like the person then go out with them if you feel like its the best for you.who cares if other girls think hes ugly! You may think hes hott and everyone else might think hes ugly but who cares......if you like him then it doesnt matter cause god might want u to go out with that person.u never know.
I went out with this guy last year and i knew everybody thought that i was to good for him and that he was ugly.But u know what..... i didnt care what everyone else thought at all.I liked him and thats all that mattered.Everyone kept saying"ew why r u going out with him hes ugly".I was going out with him because i really liked his personality alot.I dont look at looks.I look at personality cause thats all that matters.
Bottom line, it doesnt matter what other people think because you will end up happier.If you do what other people say u should do then you will end up incredibly sad and not happy at all.Bottom line, dont care about what others think, only care about what you and god think.
My day at school.
12.11.06 (2:04 pm) [edit]Hmm well today at school, my day was.......intresting.my day was good till lunch.I got up from my table to go talk to one my friends and i fell on my hands and knees.It wasnt like in the middle of the cafeteria but it was where lots of people could see me.Everybody was cracking up at me and i felt soooo emberessed.
Then after lunch i was walking with the guy that i like to my 4th period class and he asked out a girl right in front of me which made me kinda sad.
Then in 4th period i kept getting hit with papers that people were throwing and my knee hurt like crap from falling.
But my day got better at the end of the day in 7th period cause we had a sub and i got to sit by ashley and we cracked up like all period.So it was all good
Yepp that was my intresting day! 
rules.
12.07.06 (8:27 pm) [edit]Yesterday in spanish, my teacher was talking to this guy in my class about how when you enroll in a school, then you are submitting yourself to their rules.Like when you sign up for school, you are basically saying you are going to go by their rules.She was saying how he needs to stop goofing around and be mature and go by the rules.Well that reminded me how that is the way it is with God.
When you ask god to come into your heart, you are saying to him that you want to be with him forever and that you are going to do what he wants to and go by the rules.God wants us to do what he says is what we are supose to do but we dont allaways do it.
When you ask God to come into your heart, you are saying that you are going to go by his rules and do what he wants you to do.But instead we are like"well he thinks its cool to do this so im gonna do it". Thats not the way things are supose to be.You are supose to do things the way God wants it no matter how emberessing,weird, or impossible it may seem to you.God wants you to do it event though other people may be laughing at you for it.Alot of people think that they can do whatever they want to do, and you can as long as thats what God wants you to do.Either that or they just completly forget about god and do whatever everybody else is doing or do what makes them look "cool".If you are going to claim that you are a christian then you need to act like it.Dont say that you are a christian and then act completly different.God would want you to claim that you love him whether its in front of a ton of popular people or if its just to yourself
It can be really hard to live like this though.I know how it feels to really really want to do somthing but God says not to.Its an incredibly hard thing to do.But go by Gods rules and life will be better then you ever imagined.Basically what im saying is that if your going to claim you are a christian, then act like one and go by Gods rules, not everybody elses.
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my friend-what went wrong.
12.03.06 (12:18 pm) [edit]i was talking to my friend, the one the i wrote a blog saying that we wernt friends anymore,and i finally realized what went wrong when we were friends.
I felt really bad for all of the sudden leaving him and not being friends with him anymore so I sent him and i.m and i said"hey how are ya?" and he said"my grandmas in the hospital dying, i have a total of 3 friends, and the girl I like pretends i dont exsist".Thats what made me realize what made him be really rude to me when we were friends.I didnt see it before but the reason he was mad all the time and was really rude to me was cause theres alot of things going on in his life that are bad and he doesnt know what to do.I felt soooooooo bad when he said that cause i was one of many people who just up and left him and stopped being friends with him.
He is one of those people who has alot of stuff going wrong for him in his life and so he takes his anger out on his friends.He needs his friends to be there for him even though hes rude.He doesnt know what to do because he feels like gods never there for him and everything.He needs people that he can trust, and people that will stick by him all the time. Even though he has been really rude to me, I am going to forgot about what he said and still be friends with him cause he needs me to be there for him.Plus everything that he said is in the past and i honestly dont care anymore.
Ill alaways be there for you.
<3
Judging-everyones beautiful =]]]]
12.02.06 (3:30 pm) [edit]Somthing ive been thinking about alot latly is how the world is.Who are we to judge? Some people just completly are rude or treat people like crap just cause they dont dress a certain way or dont act a certain way.Someone might not be skinny,someone might not have the best clothes ever,someone might not be the hottest person ever,someone might dress different then you,someone might be incredibly smart,someones choice of clothing might not be popular,but it doesnt matter because we are all the same.not better and not worse.just because you dont like the way someone dressed acts or does things doesnt give you the right to make fun of them or judge them.because the person might like dressing that way or acting that way even though its not cool to do that.We shouldnt care about what others think.You might want to do somthing really really bad and not do it because it wasnt cool to and then end up regretting not doing it.it doesnt matter what other people think.if u wanna do somthing then do it.if people make fun of u for it then they arnt the kind of people you should be around or be friends with.im a complete dork but i dont care what people think of that!!!! i have friends that dc if i look stupid doing what im doing and they love me for who i am.your friends should be like that to.But the whole point of this is that it doesnt matter how a person looks or dresses like or acts.everyone is beautiful in there own way.=]]]]]