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This guy.

11.29.06 (8:07 pm)   [edit]
Theres this one guy and he use to be my friend and im kinda worried about him.we stopped being friends about a week ago.Most of his friends have stopped being his friend because he is rude to everyone.And that has made him really sad and upset and kinda mad too.So he has hardly any friends now.He is a christian but he has some things wrong in his life and it affects the way he acts around other people.But im worried about him because he wont let me be his friend and he needs someone that he can trust to be his friend.Hes one of those guys that use to alaways say"i hate my life, i wanna die" and that makes me scared that hes gonna try to do somthing bad.not necisarly kill himself but do somthen else bad.I told him that im alaways here for him but i dont think he believes me.I want him to be closer to god and to have a better life and in order to have a better life with more friends and everything he has to be close to god but he is to busy with caring about what other people think about him and the girl he likes.It mean alot to me if everyone would pray for him.He needs everything to get better so plleeeaaaaaaasssssssseeee eee pray for him.thank you =]]]

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Brokenness

11.29.06 (7:57 pm)   [edit]
Tonight at church the service was about brokenness and how god is always there when you are broken.this really spoke to me cause latly theres been alot of things happening that have made me upset and sad.That just made me feel really good and stuff cause it reminded me how god is alaways there for you in good and bad times and how god is alaways gonna use the bad things in your life to make your life better.I was soooo happy tonight at church because i finally felt like someone was there for me and understood how i feel about everything.It made me realize that god will mend the broken roads.I dont know about anyone else but that give me hope to go on tomorrow and every other day.=]]]]

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school.

11.28.06 (1:53 pm)   [edit]
school freaken sucks right now.i am failing english and near failing biology and geography.i can never get good grades in those classes.its just sucks cause i never have fun anymore cause band is freaken boring now and so all i do at school is be bored and get bad grades.i hate school.its just soooo hard cause i dont know anything on my quizes and tests and and top of that my parents make everything worse and on top of that i have personal stuff im working on.its to much and i cant do it all.idk what to do.theres absolutly no time to study for my tests.and when i do have time i spend it studying for my INCREDBIBLY hard tests in biology that i alaways fail.so as of right now i hate school.but im working on it.i wouldnt mind if yall prayed for me =]]]]

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parents

11.27.06 (4:23 pm)   [edit]
parents are so annoying.they never butt out of your life when you need them to.they are constantly bugging you.when you need time to just be alone and think about things they are ALAWAYS right in your face asking you about homework,whats going on in a week for band.i mean for peat sake.i need my time just to sit by myself and think about stuff but do i ever get it??? nope.parents are never there for u except to tell u when you are wrong and to annoy you.haha sorry ya i am just kinda mad at my parents soooo ya haha.had to get that out.does anybody else feel this way??? well ill write later.

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2 of my fav songs =]]

11.25.06 (9:32 pm)   [edit]
When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm strong I have figured out How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart Please don't throw that away Cuz I'm here for you Please don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay, stay Use me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know I'll be okay Though my skies are turning gray I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven [to fade] Your gardian angel - by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus ------------------------- ------------------------- - You are not a god Created by human hands You are not a god Dependant on any mortal man You are not a god In need of anything we can give By Your plan, that’s just the way it is [chorus] You are God alone From before time began You were on Your throne Your are God alone And right now In the good times and bad You are on Your throne You are God alone You’re the only God Whose power none can contend You’re the only God Whose name and praise will never end You’re the only God Who’s worthy of everything we can give You are God And that’s just the way it is [chorus] Unchangeable Unshakable Unstoppable That’s what You are You are God alone - by Phillips Craig And Dean

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friends-parents

11.25.06 (9:18 pm)   [edit]
My friends are my life.I absolutly love them and they are always there for me.They make me happy when im sad and i can just be myself around them.=]].i recently talked to one of my friends and he said that his life sucks right now because of some things.He said that his parents never let him do anything even when he does everything they want him to do.I know how he feels.Sometimes i feel like my parents will never leave me alone and let me sit and think about things.They alaways think i am waisting my time.Well im not i am thinking about stuff that is very important to me.But all that i have found that has helped the way i feel about anything is praying about it.Because parents(most)arnt gonna listen to what you think is best for you and what you want.they just care about what they think and nothing else.And thats why i pray about it cause when we cant change things..god can. Somthing that i feel like i should blog about is somthing that happened to one of my friends.His parents physically abuse him.They hit him all the time and they kick him out of the house sometimes.This happened to him on thanksgiving(this year).ya thanksgiving.i just happened to be on instant messanger and he i.m'd me and told me everything and how he felt about it.he felt so sad and that he feels like his parents hate him and that he doesnt know what to do cause its happened more then once.I told him that i couldnt talk very long but he told me that he doesnt care and that hes just glad to be able to talk to someone who cares about him.I felt soooo sorry and usless.i dont think ive ever felt so usless in my life.i wanted to do somthing about it but there wasnt anything for me to do about it.I felt sooooo sorry for him.I didnt know what to do or what to say to him.And i thought that i had it bad.I still feel usless cause all that i can do about it is pray about it.It makes me kinda.....scared almost that his parents are going to hurt him.I dont want them to hurt him and i want him to live the happy life he deserves.He is the sweetest guy and he is prolly the only person that i cant talk to about everything.I wanted to give him a hug and tell him in person that i will alaways be here for him and that he can call me whenever he wants but considering that i was talking to him on instant messanger thats kinda impossible to tell him that in person.He is the sweetest guy and he doesnt deserve to be treated like this.PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do me and him a favor and pray for him.thank you.=]

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ambitions-other things

11.24.06 (9:52 pm)   [edit]
My ambitions are somthing ive been thinking alot about latly.Im sure alot of people would call me a freak because i have ambitions.Well to bad i dont care what anyone else thinks.I have alot of things that i want to do in my life i plan on doing them.I have no idea when where or how but someday i am going to.One thing i want to do is i want to take alot of pictures of me and that one special guy on a beach watching a sunset.i love sunsets.they are beautiful.It has become one of my "things to do in my life" things.that is to go to hawii and take a pic with palm trees and a really pretty sunset and a beach in it.=]]].Another one of my ambitions is to change the world in a couple of ways.i want to change it by the way people look at freaks and nerds.because all the popular people think that it doesnt matter what freaks think.well guess what.......IT DOES!!!!!!!!!! and somehow i am going to change that.oh yes and i am also somehow gonna show the world that guys need to stop being retards and start treating girls right!!!!!!!! heres some advice for guys: dont ever tell a girl shes hott.all that says is that u just care that shes hott and nothing else.most girls want to be loved for their personality and who they are(the good girls anyways).never cheat on the girl.that just shows how immuture and retarted yall are and eventually no girls are gonna like u if u do that.in my oppinion guys should ask the girl if they can kiss them because the girl might not be ready.like i dont wanna be kissed till i feel like its the right person.and so for me i dont wanna kiss every boyfriend that i have cause that just takes away the special moment with that one guy that u fall in love with.oh and guys......dont be an ahole after you and your girlfriend break up.girls hate that and they just want to be friends with you but if u r gonna be an ahole then they r gonna hate u.NEVER ASK OUT A GIRL JUST BECAUSE U WANT A GF.that is the stupidest thing that i have ever heard of when it comes to dating.i mean god.....how desperate can u get.dating is meant for dating the people u like and the people u like only. ok somthen else that is annoying the crap out of me right now is how people label other people.like ill hear people say"shes a poser cause shes wearing punk shoes" about someone.i mean for peat sake people......do u see on the shoes written"for punks only"....i dont think so.so the shoes are meant for ANYONE who wants to wear them.do not label someone before u even talk to them and really get to know them.dont just judge them cause they are gothic,preppy,punk,skater ,and anything else.some people can be the most gothic people u have ever seen and still have the preppiest personality.thats why i wear the stuff that i wear.I wear converse,vans,studed belts,sometimes alot of black because i happen to think that all that is cute.AND I AM NOT A POSER!!!!!!! i can wear what i want to and people dont need to judge me for that.just cause u all the sudden wear punk stuff doesnt mean that u are a poser or u are a wannabe punk.i am still a really preppy girl but i just got kinda tired of wearing all preppy clothes so i am now half punk and half preppy.and DO NOT JUDGE ME FOR THAT.i like being this way cause i think i look good the way i dress.sorry i had to get my point out but i think this blogs long enough.thats all for now.ill write later!=DDDD COMMENTS WOULD BE GREAT!!! =]]]

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things

11.24.06 (9:03 pm)   [edit]
Somthing that i have been thinking about latly is my life and what people do in life.Some people would call me a freak but i couldnt care less.One thing that i want to do is I want to change the world in a way.I want to change it by the way people treat "nerds" or "freaks" at school.I have seen sooooo many people just completly be rude and judge other people just because they arnt as good looking as someone else who is popular.I HATE that because the people that get made fun of are usually the most sweet and caring people and also the kind of people that will be the best friends.Theres this girl that at a football game was dancing behind the cougarettes(dancers that dance on the field at half time show)because she tried out to be one but didnt make it.I felt soooo sorry for her because everyone kept saying rude stuff like"someone needs to go up there and tell her she looks retarted dancing like that" it made me want to yell at them.I talked to her about a week later and she said that she loves dancing with the cougarettes.She said that she didnt care what other people think of her because she was just doing what made her happy.To me you shouldnt ever care about what other people think about you and what you do because people are eventually gonna make fun of you one way or another so its just as retarted in the long run as it is now.And its just gonna make u even more depressed and upset.Live your life the way you want to and dont care about what other people think cause you will spend your life being depressed cause people wont except u into the "popular" croud.The girl that was dancing in the stands was just doing what she wanted to do and if it makes her happy then i say she should keep doing it.I dont know about anyone else but i LOVE being happy because i hate being upset and sad.Live your life and dont have any regrets.People dont need to make fun of what you want to do in your life and what u believe in.Thats why i honestly think that u shouldnt care about what other people think because its eventually gonna just leave u standing there sad cause u wernt accepted into the popular group and u will be even more sad.Your life isnt gonna last forever and you need to live it like there were no rules to go by and you can just do whatever you really want to without anyone else caring.Be happy while you can and live your life while you can.who knows you could die tomorrow.do u wanna die with ur life being really bad and alaways being sad??? i dont.Never regret somthing that once made you smile.Nothing should hold you back from somthing you truly want to do.=]]]]

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i miss you =[[

11.24.06 (8:30 pm)   [edit]
as days go by i wander, will me and you ever be friends again? i miss you alot but it just wont work out.I cant live without you.You were my best friend, the one that i had the most fun with.I miss you alot but you hate me and never want to see me again.Will things ever be the way it use to? I want to go back in time.I want to go back to the time when we were never mad at eachother and when we alaways laughed together.This isnt the way i wanted to say goodbye.I miss you.I hope this isnt forever.I will alaways be here for you....forever.even though we wont ever talk again.=[[

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gobble gobble!!

11.23.06 (12:40 pm)   [edit]
so today as u prolly know is thanksgiving! =]]] my thanksgiving has been really fun so far even though im tired.i went to eat with my family at my parents church.then all my family including me,my parents,my awesome sista,my 2 uncles,my couzins,and my grandad came to my house which is where we are now but everyone is asleep or watching tv so i decided to get on and write this! haha I love thanksgiving! and no not just cause of all the wonderful amazing food that i love to eat, but because it reminds me of all that has happened in my life, good and bad, and im thankful for it all.I am thankful for god,friends,family,MUSIC <3,tennis,life,and sooooo much more.I mean why not be thankful for all that.well thats all for now.HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>

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=[[

11.23.06 (7:21 am)   [edit]
well yesterday was a pretty bad day for the most part.I lost one of my best friends.I miss him alot but idk i dont think things will ever change.I really want to be friends with him again but i think he hates me.He told one of my friends that he just got tired of me cause i was to obsessed with him and i was to perky for him.He also said that I got tired of crying over him.And actually the only time i have ever cried over him was months ago.And i was NEVER obsessed with him i just made the mistake of thinking that we were good friends.So now hes like all mad and stuff well guess what.....IM REALLY MAD!!!! i still cant believe he said all that stuff when none of it was true.I honestly think its gods will for us not to be friends cause it made a bad impact on me and him and it wasnt the best for us.so ig im sorta ok with us not being friends but i still miss the good and fun times we had together but i will alaways remember them.Everything will get better.Idk how but i know it will cause god has bigger and better things in store for me.So as for me and my friend right now......i wish him the best of luck with his life but as for right now its goodbye.......mabey forever.

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i found this from a friends myspace.but its soooooo true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11.22.06 (4:30 pm)   [edit]
MY TRUE LOVE MY EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !When you feel lost and you can't find your way who do you call out to? When you feel trapped and feel like there is no way out who do you call out to for help? When you feel hurt and your heart is broken in a thousand pieces who do you call to pick those pieces up and make them whole? When you cry a river of tears what name do you cry out to wipe them tears from your face? When you feel ugly who is the one that you hear whisper to you that you are my pretty flower? When you are having a bad day and you are in need of a hug who is the one that comes to your mind to give that to you? When you feel hopeless and no one can understand youwho is the one that gives you hope? When you are going through tough times in your life and you feel like something is stabbing you in your heart over and over again, Who is the one that is walking along beside you protecting you and helping you heal your wounds? When you need to hear the words I LOVE YOU who is the one right there whispering in your ear over and over again I LOVE YOU? When you can't understand things who is the one you look to help you understand better? Who is the one you look up to for all these things? WHO? When you feel lost and you can't find your way GOD is the one you call out to. He's the one that will help you find your way.When you feel trapped and feel like there is no way outGOD is the one you call to for help. He is the one that will break those chains and set you free.When you feel hurt and your heart is broken in a thousand pieces GOD is the one that will pick those pieces up and make you feel whole.When you cry a river of tears GOD is the one you cry out to. He's the one that will wipe the tears from your face.When you feel ugly GOD is the one whispering in your ear that you are my pretty flower.When you are having a bad day and in need of a hug GOD is the one that come your mind HE is the one that will give you that hug.When you are feeling hopeless and like no one understands you GOD is the one that understands and knows and he is the one that gives you hope to go on.When you are going through tough times in your life and you feel like that you are being stabbed in the heart over and over again GOD is the one with you through your tough times. He is the one holding you and helping you through those tough times and he is the one healing your wounds.When you need to hear the words I LOVE YOU GOD is the one whispering to you in your ear over and over again I LOVE YOU and so much more.When you can't understand things that are going on GOD is the one you look to. He is the one waiting on you just to ask him so he can help you understand better. God is my everything.He is alaways there for me and he alaways shows me in some way that things are going to be ok.God is my everything and nothing is ever gonna take him away from me <3>

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today =]]

11.21.06 (9:03 pm)   [edit]
so today was a pretty good day.i went and got me a cell phone.heck yes i got a cell phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!! haaahaahaha ya im really really really happy =]]] hahah and then i went and played tennis with my friends philip and evan.it was sooooooooooo much fun.but the thing that sucks is that i cant use or see my cell till christmas.soooo yea.idk its also been kinda a confusing day cause theres still all this confusing stuff between me and a friends and idk what to do and theres to much stuff on my mind.i need to start drivers ed but dont ever have time to.ive decided to pretty much give up on some things.some of them are changing one of my friends to be a better christian,changing the way the world is and how people judge to quikly,becoming close to my parents.idk it just seems hopeless cause my parents are never there for me and it just seems somthing that a 15 yr old girl couldnt change.i prolly wont give up cause i eventually am going to try really really hard and find some way to change things about the world that are important to me.some people might think im a total freak for having ambitions and chasing after them but i honestly couldnt care less.i use to care alot about what people think about me and stuff but now i couldnt care less cause some people will just put u down and say rude stuff to u and make u feel like crap so i just dont care anymore.somthing that i have been thinking about alot is whether or not i should quit tennis or not.i LOVE tennis but theres other things i wanna do and i dont have time for those and tennis.i really like photography and i wanna take pics and stuff but first of all have no camera second of all have no pretty places in my city to take pics of.so thats kinda a problem.then i wanna learn how to play acoustic guitar.i have no guitar,no money to get one,and no time.theres just soooooo many things i wanna do but i cant do them.theres some things keeping me from doing them.thats one of the reasons why i write blogs cause i want people to see things from my point of view and ik that someone out there will understand what im feeling and will be like "moved" or "touched" by it.that and i alaways need somthing to just write down my feelings and writing takes to long.i want to do soooooo much but i cant cause im to young and i dont have the money to.but im hoping to when i get older.one way that im starting to make a differnce is i want to go to africa with my church youth group and idk how im gonna change somthing but im gonna find a way to make a difference.idk how but sometime in my life i am going to make a difference.but ya what do yall think about this???? id really like to know so plllleeeeaaaasssseeee comment =]]]]

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life-theres a reason for everything

11.20.06 (4:18 pm)   [edit]
Theres been times when ive heard someone say they want to die or they hate their life.I know how it feels.Theres been times when I just dont understand at all why somthing is happening.I know that sometimes you get so upset about somthing and not know what to do or feel.some people turn to their friends for help and advice.others turn to music and God.I turn to all those things.I honestly dont know what i would do without any of that.My friends are my everything.They love me for me when nobody else does.Music is a HUGE part of my life because it says words that I cant seem to make me say.When I listen to worship songs it reminds me of how god is alaways gonna be there for me and that everything will be alright.I know what it feels like to be alone and wander if anyone else is going through what you are.You feel so alone and like nobody is ever gonna understand you and what you go through.It sometimes changes the way you act and are around other people including your friends.One time i was really really upset some things and I didnt talk like hardly at all for like a week.I just felt like there was no hope and that it was never gonna work out the way i wanted it cause its not meant to be that way.It finally hit me one day that I need to stop trying to make things work because its not meant to be the way i wanted it.It sucks when you really want it to work out between you and someone else but it just wont.you have no idea what is going on and what went wrong but you know it wasnt meant to be.When that finally hit me I had never felt so sad and upset before in my life.I didnt know what to do or what to think or say.Thats the day when i realized everything happens for a reason and it will work out to be gods will and the way you will be happiest.The only things that helped me through all of this was God and my friends.Friends are really important because you need friends who will build you up,be there for you alaways,and wont judge you and the way you think.Dont ever try to figure out stuff on your own because you will end up being more upset and almost depressed.God will alaways be there for you, you just have to have faith in him.Pray about whatever is bothering you and he will listen and make things better.It might take a day, a week, a month, a year, or a couple of years.But just have faith in god that he will take care of it. A couple of weeks ago i was listening to the radio and the topic was how people, mainly teens, are becoming anorexic,belimic,and suicidel.This really made me think about alot of stuff.I see alot of people these days trying to be relaly skinny and wearing clothes that they think makes them look"hott" or w/e.and then i see the tv shows 48 hrs and dateline that talk about that stuff too.I also hear alot of people on tv,at school,in random stores saying stuff like"im fat and i need to lose weight" or somthen along the lines of that and they say it when they arnt fat AT ALL.I mean i know how it feels to feel like ur fat and u need to lose weight.ive thought about that sometimes even though i am really skinny.about 3 months ago i kept myself from eating alot so that i wouldnt gain weight.ya ik stupid right? well i thought i was fat then.idk what i was thinking but ya.im not that way anymore and i still pig out =]]]] hahah.But all that did for me was show me that there is a reason for everything.It showed me that because i finally realized that god made me the way i am and who cares if im fat even though im not.Every person is pretty/good looking in their own way whether its on the inside or outside.You are who you are and you shouldnt be afraid to be that person.Thats been like a HUGE thing for me latly.But my point is, is that it doesnt matter what other people think about you.And for all of you who have problems with losing to much weight, talk to someone about it.I know that may seem really weird for you but itll be the best thing.Talk to a youth director, a friend that can help.But the point is, is that I know what it feels like to feel like your ugly and your fat.you feel like everyone doesnt even want to talk to you cause they think your ugly and that no guys/or girls will ever like you cause your not good looking.I hate feeling that way cause you feel like crap but just remember that your friends and God are alaways there for you no matter what.=]]] A quote that i really like that goes along with that"theres alaways someone in the world that loves you even though it may not be the person you are hoping for" That alaways gives me hope that things will be better.well i think this blogs long enough.soooo comment if u want to =]]]]

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confused,life

11.19.06 (3:17 pm)   [edit]
well right now im really confused about alot of things.my grandad might die pretty soon which makes me really sad =[[.then theres this guy that i really like but idk it just seems like im invisible or im not good enough for him.its just all really consusing and i need someone to talk to it about.theres only one person that i will talk to about all this and his parents wont let him on most of the time which makes it hard for me.I need someone who can listen to me and not judge me on the way i feel about things.I want someone to talk to, but not anyone i want someone who understands what im goin through and can help me.i want someone who i can grow more in my faith in.so since i havnt found a person that will be on alot and that i can trust with all my personal stuff then i basically figure out stuff on my own.but somehow i figure out what to do and i end up being happy with my life.i honestly dk what i would do without god.hes the only person that makes me happy and is alaways there for me ALL THE TIME,except jason g. =]]].to me photography says how a person feels.in some pics i have seen people crying with alot of makeup running down their face.then other times i will see pics with people smiling really big like they just won somthing HUGE.so thats the reason i like photography because it shows how a person really feels.somthing that i have been thinking about ALOT is how my life is gonna be in the next couple years and in collage.will my life be good? will me and him still be friends? will i get married? what job will i have? all these things are running through my head and ive alaways wandered if i will still have him in my life even after school.i dont want to lose him.ive already lost him once and i dont want it to happen again.i honestly cant live without him and i would die inside if we were no longer friends. somthing else that i have been thinking alot about is how much i love music.music says words that i cant say,it alaways reminds me of things and my life.i love it and its my addiction. well thats all for right now but i will write later.

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this guy =]]

11.19.06 (9:52 am)   [edit]
this guy....is amazing.i love being around him and i couldnt live without him.he alaways makes me happy and he alaways makes me laugh.i dont know what i would do without him.=]]]]]

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